WHAT I LISTEN TO ON REPEAT (updated 03/01/22!)

Bryson Tiller

  1. Don't

  2. Overtime

  3. Open Interlude

  4. Sorry Not Sorry

  5. Blame

  6. Right My Wrongs

  7. Exchange

  8. Rambo (feat the Weeknd)

  9. Let Em' Know

  10. Been That Way

  11. Sorrows

Beyonce

  1. 6 Inch

  2. Daddy Lessons

  3. Don't Hurt Yourself

  4. Hold Up

Rihanna

  1. Consideration

  2. Woo

  3. Needed Me

  4. Diamonds

  5. Rude Boy

Mac Miller

  1. Weekend

  2. Knock Knock

  3. Cinderella

  4. Stay

  5. Missed Calls

  6. 100 Grandkids

  7. Dang

  8. Brand Name

  9. Thats On Me

  10. Rush Hour

  11. Conversation Pt.1

  12. Self Care

  13. 2009

  14. Jet Fuel

Summer Walker

  1. Constant Bullshit

  2. Ciara's Prayer

  3. Throw It Away

  4. No Love

  5. 4th Baby Mama

  6. Playing Games

H.E.R.

  1. We Made It

  2. Damage

  3. This Way (Khalid)

  4. Losing

  5. My Own

Zayn

  1. Dusk Till Dawn

  2. Rear View

  3. Like I Would

  4. She Don't Love Me

  5. If I Got You

  6. There You Are

  7. Entertainer

Drake

  1. Jaded

  2. Fair Trade

  3. Doing It Wrong

  4. Finesse

  5. Feel No Ways

  6. N 2 Deep

  7. Get Along Better 

  8. Nice For What

  9. That's How You Feel

SZA

  1.  Good Days

  2. I Hate U

  3. Prom

  4. Anything

  5. Quicksand

  6. Broken Clocks

  7. The Weekend

  8. Supermodel

  9. Drew Barrymore

  10. Garden

  11. Go Gina

  12. Doves In The Wind 

  13. 20 Something  

Kehlani

  1. Altar

  2. Personal

  3. Can I

  4. Hate The Club

  5. Do U Dirty

  6. Open

  7. Good Thing

  8. Grieving

  9. Toxic

  10. In My Feelings

The Weeknd

  1. The Morning

  2. Try Me

  3. As You Are

  4. Angel

  5. Wicked Games

  6. Tell Your Friends

  7. Hardest To Love

  8. Reminder

  9. Sidewalks

  10. Is There Someone Else?

  11. Ordinary Life

  12. Heartless

  13. Faith

  14. Die For You

  15. After Hours

  16. All I Know

  17. Party Monster

  18. Save Your Tears

  19. Real Life

  20. High For This

Doja Cat

  1. Been Like This

  2. You Right

  3. Need to Know

  4. Ain't Shit

Ariana Grande

  1. You Don't Know Me

  2. better off

  3. Best Mistake

  4. goodnight n go

  5. safety net

  6. You'll Never Know

Nicki Minaj

  1. Do We Have A Problem?

Harry Styles

  1. To Be So Lonely

  2. Adore You

  3. Falling

  4. Golden

  5. Fine Line

  6. Kiwi

  7. Women

Billie Eilish

  1. Not My Responsibility

  2. I Didn't Change My Number

  3. Therefore I am

  4. Happier Than Ever

Noah Cyrus

  1. July

  2. Mad at You

  3. Lonely

Cardi B

  1. get up 10

  2. be careful

  3. I Do

  4. bartier cardi

Brent Faiyaz

  1. Gravity

  2. Crew

  3. Poison

  4. Dreams, Fairytales, Fantasies

LIVE THE LIFE YOU WANT

QUOTES THAT ARE STUCK IN MY HEAD

"Life goes on, days get brighter" - Mac Miller

“If you want it, and the more you keep hearing you can’t have it, you just go and get it." - Cardi B

"Its not too late to build it back, cause a one in a million chance, is still a chance, and I would take those odds" - James Arthur

"Life's a bitch, but she's my bitch" - Mac Miller

"I live in my own head and it all makes sense to me." - Tyler the Creator

"i'm just trying to go through life being a little less worried of stuff because ultimately it will be okay" - Harry Styles

"No matter where life takes me, find me with a smile." - Mac Miller

"sometimes I see the world for how fucked up it really is, I tell myself I'll be the one to make a change in it." -Mac Miller

Social Media

Instagram: @laurennn176

Twitter: @fowlerlauren134

Books I've Read Lately (past 3 months)

Small Great Things - Jodi Picoult
Nineteen Minutes- Jodi Picoult
Verity - Colleen Hoover
It Ends With Us- Colleen Hoover
flowers on the moon - Billy Chapata

Journal Prompts that have helped me so sharing them here

1. List 3 things that made you feel anxious today
2. List 5 things you are currently stressed about
3. List 5 things causing you stress but that you have the ability to change?
4.What is the worst thing about anxiety?
5. What are some boundaries you need to start setting for yourself?
6. Write down 3 things your past self would admire about your current self.
7. What is your favorite thing to do when you're alone?
8. List 5 positive affirmations you can tell yourself everyday.
9. Where are you keeping yourself small? What needs to change?
10. What are you doing/ who are you with when you feel the most at peace?
11. If I did the same things that I'm currently doing, would I be proud of myself and my life?
12. Do I want to change my life for the better?
13. How can I expand my comfort zone? 
14. Am I lying to myself?
15. Am I in control of my life? Or is someone else is?
16. Is your anxiety tied to a memory or experience?
17. Do you have a good support system?
18. What has stress taught you about yourself?

 

Things I've Learned

1. Do not take anything personal

2. take the risk

3. stop carrying yourself like you're surviving and start living

4. Don't make assumptions
- the problem with making assumptions is that we believe they are the truth
- we only see what we want to see and hear what we want to hear

5. you have to lose your fear of failure, you have to get it wrong to get it right. 

6. healing isn't linear

7. One of my social work professors said "when an airplane pilot makes you test the face masks, you have to put it on yourself before you can help someone else" 

8. asking for help is okay.

9. going to therapy isn't something to be ashamed about

10. don't ever ask me for directions, I still use my GPS to get from school to work 

11. not everyone is going to want you to succeed, you have to want it, work for it and do it for yourself. 

12. be where your feet are 

13. if you have friends that hold you accountable and give you space to grow, keep them. 

14. its okay to not be okay, but don't stay there. 

15. the past 2 years has kicked everyone's ass. be kind, don't be a dick

16. healing is a b*tch